The great thing about going through old photos is that you realize how far you’ve come.
I like to think I’ve gotten better.
The photo, above, is the 3rd frame of film that I had shot when I first started shooting with a 35mm camera. It is me, by the way… and yeah, that was my hair. It was the 80s. What can I say.
The photo of Scarlet, below, was taken a few months ago with a digital camera.
When I first started getting serious about photography, I made a conscious decision about how I would decorate my apartment: I decided that everything on my walls would be my artwork. No posters or paintings… nothing that I hadn’t created myself.
While that might sound arrogant to some, it had everything to do with keeping myself accountable for getting better. It’s really hard to look at something that you’ve created day after day without noticing the things that you could have done differently. I am hyper critical about my own images. There are very few things that I’ve photographed where I can’t find critical errors with my execution.
Of course, the downside to this is that as an artist, I’m all too aware of when I’m slacking. Which is why I’m happy with the image of Scarlet.
Now don’t get me wrong. Scarlet is drop dead gorgeous, extremely photogenic, and just plain sweet. She could have just stepped in front of the camera, and I would have gotten a decent photo of her. However, the reason why I love the photo above, is because I didn’t just shift into neutral. I worked hard to make sure that Scarlet was getting the type of images that she wanted.
There’s one other reason that I liked running across that 3rd frame of film. It reminded me about that guy who was just thrilled to death to own a 35mm camera. That I finally had control over all of the variables. That I could do things that I couldn’t do before.
When you’ve been shooting for a while, its possible to lose that innocence, that drive. That part of you that says, “Let’s take an image of my feet!”
That guy in the 3rd frame had no clue that it would become his life. The guy who photographed Scarlet still can’t believe how lucky he is.